Forgiveness Part 1 - I Am the Wicked Servant
If you missed my introduction post, you can go here to read about my long-running struggle with forgiveness.
Our first week here in VA, a situation occured which brought my bitterness freshly to the surface. For the countless time, I struggled in vain to release my right to be angry over old wounds.
In His infinite wisdom, God directed us to visit a certain church that week... where the sermon happened to be was ordained to be on forgiveness.
Though the preacher spoke very well and made some amazing points, I have no doubt that the Holy Spirit was the one teaching me that morning. For starters, when the pastor first read through the Bible passage [below], the Holy Spirit prompted me to exchange the words of the text to make it more personal. Like so:
Then Peter came up and said to him, “Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?” Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.
“Therefore the kingdom of heaven may be compared to a king who wished to settle accounts with his servants. When he began to settle,
[Matthew 18:21-35 ESV]
When I exchanged "the servant" with my own name, I saw my life reflected in this passage, and I got chills at the end when Jesus says "So also my heavenly Father will do to every one of you, if you do not forgive your brother from your heart." Yikes.
Seeing myself as the "wicked servant" was the first step that God had me take on the path to freedom. It's so easy to judge the first man in this story... why on earth would he care about the other man's debt when he had just been pardoned so much?
But I knew... I knew because that first man was such a clear reflection of myself. I knew all to well that the first man felt justified in doing what he did because he didn't understand the gravity of his own debt... of what he had been pardoned. I began to pray earnestly that God would reveal just how great a debt I owed Him... just how much I had been forgiven by my Heavenly Father.
God answered my prayer, and I will share His reply with you next week.
I know...good stuff that keeps getting better. Until next week friends!